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i will practice hard







to avoid getting smashed. hopefully.

and because playing badminton is blissful, how could i forget that. haha.

”またね”って言葉の儚さ 叶わない約束

Flumpool - 「証」

Ｆｌｕｍｐｏｏｌ　－　Ｃｅｒｔｉｆｉｃａｔｅ

Face forward, if you ever look back, you’ll stagger

Finally, I managed to wave my hands to you who are fading in the distance

If I call out, I might hold you back. So, in my heart, I whisper

“I’ll be heading towards my dream, and you are going to realize yours”

Only after I lost it, that I realize the warmth that I took for granted

Living through loneliness, I hold on the courage to start on my own path

Before the overflowing tears obstructing you from view

At least, I’ll say “See you again someday” with a smile

When we hurt each other, for countless time we forgive one another

Won’t that be our irreplaceable proof

Even if people critic you of being willful, just keep wishing

That voice will surely reach, if you’re being yourself

If I ever have my dream crushed and given up

Please do scold me from afar, just like those times

At the other end of where you’re pointing, there surely is hope

no one is going to decide it for you

when you’re suffering inside, if you come to question the meaning of life

gently remember of ourselves on that day

“see you again” is a vain word, an empty promise

no matter how many times we exchange it, I’ll never get used to it

nevertheless, in the notebook in which fragments of the past sprawl over

there’s not even a single page with you absent in it

By the time I’ve wiped the tears away, you were already gone

“Thanks” was the word I could think of

again and again we hurt each other and laugh together

this bond will be locked inside my heart, I’ll be setting off too

***

This song struck me deep. Somehow I can relate it with my high school life. Now everyone is grown up and walking down their own path. No matter how many times we utter the word "I miss you" to each other, it just wont be the same between us anymore. It wont be.

But I believe every encounter is destined, and mould us the way we are right now. Thank you for the bittersweet memories :')

to ; SA,SL,SM, and AA.

reading for the sake of

Since i was a kid, my parents had always nurtured the need to read and bask in knowledge.
even in kindergarden(sp?) they started to feed me with useful reading materials, like story books, kisah-kisah nabi, and mini encyclopedia. hmm it's not really mini i think, it's like a set of informative books designed specially for kids.

this kind of book :3

 the set are divided into alot of genre like.. mechanics and gadgets (pumps, how dam works, dynamo, how can an aeroplane flies, how water system in house works, how camera take pictures, formation of mirage and others)
animals (speed of different animals ; who's the fastest and slowest, how porcupine protect themselves, specialty of tiger's traits, defense mechanism of cicak XDd and others)
organs! (our pupil will dilate/constrict in response to light, white crescent shaped moon exist in your nail indicates that you're healthy, importance of sleep for regulation of body, how digestive works ; spicy food does get digested faster, keratinisation of skin, formation of mole, melanin, albino, etc etc.)
and also nursery rhymes. ^o^

the books were drawn with helpful colourful diagrams, and were told in simple words that it'll attract little kids to read em. masa umur 5~7 tahun memang la keje menconteng buku tu dengan pensil warna je, bila dah besar sikit baru boleh proses dan baca info dalam buku-buku tu. memang menarik (:

now that i'm learning parts of body here and there, i cant help but to remember the small tidbits i've learned back when i was a kid, thanks to the books that my parents provided. for example, when all of us are learning about eye, the fact that i know our pupil dilate and constrict in order to regulate the intake of light inside of our eyeball since i was 9 years old made me feel very.. reminiscent and giddy. happy and shocked that what i've learnt back in my childhood popped up again in my university life. and it sparked a thought in me.

during my childhood, i used to be so excited reading everything related to life, devouring every knowledge that i could. until now, i can still remember how the diagrams look in those old books.

but now.. aiyo ==

honestly, i miss that feeling of wanting more and more of knowledge, absorbing everything without feeling burdened and stressed. having no worries about upcoming exam, what will life throw towards you.


hopefully one day i can regain and relive that blissful feeling. studying not for the sake of passing, but for the sake of the knowledge itself.

***
so one day hopefully when I have my own children (eh eh kau ni tak habis study lagi nak cher pasal anak sendri pulakk)


I'll buy em books, just like what my parents did. kids learn fast, and easily. they have superb memory and ability to remember. the things you've learnt back in your childhood is one of the most vivid memory you could have :)

thank you mom and dad for being such an awesome parents mwah mwah :* Alhamdulillah, thank you ya Allah for giving me such parents. I'm grateful to be your daughter.

and did I told you two that you guys are awesome? No? Then I'm telling it again that you guys are made up of pure awesomeness. hehe. and my siblings too of course. hihi abangkakngahafizaidin <3 <3

when I get back to Malaysia I am soooo gonna take a look at those books again hehe!

on the bus

heard maher zain's song, and i cant help but to smile like an idiot heheeh =="

reminds me back then when my parents came to pick me up at kolej matrikulasi melaka, dad always turn on the vcd player and maher zain's song will be looped again and again to the point i think i accidentally hafal-ed most of the songs already. i miss that moment wew :')