today we learnt about haemopoiesis. haemo = blood ; poiesis = process of formation and maturation.
related to the formation of blood and the mechanism to process it yada yada yada.
it was FUN because back in matrix I have learnt it too, with the antigen and the marker and the interleukine blablabla. I still remember how Kak Shiqin presented the mechanism of lymphocytes binding with the antigen when we are promoting our 'special sugar' merchandise for our English project. Haha.
But still, I wonder if this feeling of excitement and joy will last when the block ends, and the end block assessment comes looming right over my head? We'll see, we'll see.
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Yesterday, I've watched the Dream Live 3rd of Tenimyu.
The person who played the main protagonist ; Kotaro Yanagi was involved in a car accident and was in a coma for 2 weeks. He weighed only 30kg at that time. Consequent of the accident is that he suffered extensive damage on his body and vocal cords.
Taken from his book :-
「 The doctor's diagnosis was a cerebral contusion on the left side of the cephalic hood, damage to the brain stem and cerebellum, paralysis due to a subarachnoid hemorrhage, decreased mental status, impairment of higher brain functions....
At this time, I still didn't know what had happened.
From then on, little by little I was able to respond to things, and even though I was conscious, it wasn't until the New Year had began that I was capable of any form of communication.
Ever since I'd woken up, I had trouble remembering things, and I couldn't really retain anything new either, so I don't have very many memories of that time.
I'd find myself staring off into space easily, and I'd close my eyes and loll around. It was hard to keep my balance, and I became unable to regulate my strength or speed. And the smallest things pissed me off. My hands and feet were partially paralyzed, so I wasn't even able to stand up properly. My dominant right hand wouldn't move according to my wishes anymore. My words wouldn't come out right anymore either, I couldn't articulate well. I'd get tired so quickly.... 」
But still, he trieｓ his best in recovering and does physio treatment and rehabilitation with all his might, because he wanted to finish off what he had involved in ; the musical.
and so, he did managed to recover from the accident, but there's a permanent damage to his vocal cord, so when he sings sometimes the tune is not right, he had a very hard time memorise some of the lines while practicing for the musical and he could only dance out the simple choreography. He now exhibits a permanent limp when he walks, and his speech was not as smooth as before.
However, despite of all the hardships, he successfully managed to make a comeback on the stage, and tries his best performing even though his body wont cooperate like it used to.
It must be painful to lose the ability that you used to have and cherish. I was trying hard not to let my lacrimal gland to secrete more lacrimal fluid as I watch him perform ;__;
Here's the video of him giving speech for his last perfomance of Tenimyu.
I could not find the right words to express my feelings and amazement T____T..
If it were me.. I doubt that I'll have such strength to fight off the disability. Maybe I'll spend the rest of my life mourning..? Or maybe it'll take me some time to get over the sadness == I don't know :/
This proves that our cerebrum, brainstem, cerebellum and other component plays a major and vital role in our life. Their functions are so intricate, detailed and related, it is impossible for a human to mimic and create such system. SubhanAllah.. We should appreciate and be grateful with our body, health and the precious ability and gift given to us, because we never know ; it might be taken away at the moment you least expected it.
Face forward, if you ever look back, you’ll stagger
Finally, I managed to wave my hands to you who are fading in the distance
If I call out, I might hold you back. So, in my heart, I whisper
“I’ll be heading towards my dream, and you are going to realize yours”
Only after I lost it, that I realize the warmth that I took for granted
Living through loneliness, I hold on the courage to start on my own path
Before the overflowing tears obstructing you from view
At least, I’ll say “See you again someday” with a smile
When we hurt each other, for countless time we forgive one another
Won’t that be our irreplaceable proof
Even if people critic you of being willful, just keep wishing
That voice will surely reach, if you’re being yourself
If I ever have my dream crushed and given up
Please do scold me from afar, just like those times
At the other end of where you’re pointing, there surely is hope
no one is going to decide it for you
when you’re suffering inside, if you come to question the meaning of life
gently remember of ourselves on that day
“see you again” is a vain word, an empty promise
no matter how many times we exchange it, I’ll never get used to it
nevertheless, in the notebook in which fragments of the past sprawl over
there’s not even a single page with you absent in it
By the time I’ve wiped the tears away, you were already gone
“Thanks” was the word I could think of
again and again we hurt each other and laugh together
this bond will be locked inside my heart, I’ll be setting off too
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This song struck me deep. Somehow I can relate it with my high school life. Now everyone is grown up and walking down their own path. No matter how many times we utter the word "I miss you" to each other, it just wont be the same between us anymore. It wont be.
But I believe every encounter is destined, and mould us the way we are right now. Thank you for the bittersweet memories :')
heard maher zain's song, and i cant help but to smile like an idiot heheeh =="
reminds me back then when my parents came to pick me up at kolej matrikulasi melaka, dad always turn on the vcd player and maher zain's song will be looped again and again to the point i think i accidentally hafal-ed most of the songs already. i miss that moment wew :')
now i've entered university for.. 4 months, and i've just finished my first exam 2 weeks ago. at first all of us thought that we will get our result on friday, but it turned out that the lecturers only discussed the questions and answers of our exam papers, without telling us the result. i was so nervous and jittery at that time ; since i really had thought that the result would be announced/posted after the discussion, but that was not the case apparently. after realizing my mistakes and errors that i've made in the exam, and knowing the fact that we wont get our result at that time, i have lost all the energy to be nervous and expectant. i've stopped anticipating, because i had put high hopes that we'll get our result by that particular day.
and so... when madam vindhya announced that we'll get our result on today's afternoon, i was like.. "oh okay, result." truth to be told, i was not excited or anticipating it, since all my energy to do so had dissipated and vanished into thin air due to the previous incident. my hopes got crushed before wew. i'm such a pessimist. =="
but still dadaddidadadada in the end we all got our result. i was really... shocked i guess. i did not see this coming, because the study week was disastrous and chaotic i could not put it into words. my daily schedule, health, and sleeping time went haywire ||orz
alhamdulillah, thank you Allah, thank you.. :')
it's not that good nor that bad, but I'm really grateful that I had passed and hopefully I can do and work harder so that I can improve and refine myself to be better.
the results were given out by mentors assigned for each of us students, and they're really helpful and caring towards us. they expect you not to just pass, but to strive and get the best mark o__o
they dont mind if we reach out to them for any reference or problems~ which is very good and helpful :D
i'll work harder, hopefully :O
and please excuse the sloppy and bad usage of english, my english had deteriorated and crumbled to pieces T___T
