of gentle breeze, low immunity and cherry trees.

today was a beautiful day.

went to the lake, able to again, appreciate the nature. something i took for granted for ages. able to appreciate the intricate branches of cherry trees. able to feel the gentle breeze caressing my face. able to see the lake. able to see the hues of sky turning red as dusk approaches. able to hear different opinion, different thoughts, for the same goal, Allah.

hadis 38. surah Yunus. surah al-Kauthar. surah Yasin.

banyak sangat reminder in one single day.

"Allah dah bagi kita banyak nikmat, what can we sacrifice for the sake of Allah?"

"Ujian tu datang sebab Allah care pasal kita. supaya kita patah balik kat Dia."

"36:56"

"Mohon diberi kekuatan untuk tsabat, istiqamah"

"I wish means I'm ok with not having it. Change it to I want."


i feel really really blessed. to be surrounded by such caring people who never fails to remind me of Allah. again, again and again. :')

"Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?" - surah Al-Rahman(55:16)



the first step is the hardest. but you will never achieve anything if you never get out from your comfort zone. change.

hello

no point hating, no point demeaning each other, no point self-justification,

the damage has been done.

it takes two to tango anyway.

words said cant be taken back.
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bukan rezeki :)

may Allah ease.

update

It's been ages since I've updated this blog. Few reasons accounted to that, but one of them are the typical reason you and I always heard : lazy. and maybe abit hectic here and there. Will be spamming few random posts, please excuse that eheh.

Alot of things had happened during this uh, 6 months hiatus from blog. Too many, I cant even remember them all already. I've learnt quite a number of lessons throughout these months, either first-hand or observed one. Damages and damaged were done here and there, but I think all the faults and mistakes we made will make us a better person, insyaAllah. Everything exists for a reason. I'm still learning, still learning to be a better person. Friends, please don't get tired of me and give up on me. Let's remind and repair each other to search for Him, un? Jangan masuk syurga sorang sorang ;__;

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"It's okay to fall, everyone have their ups and downs, and insyaAllah the fall will bring us to rise again. But if it takes you a long period of time to rise, self reflect and ponder what have you done, what inhibits you from rising again." - Kak Diba

wake up call

assess your environment and self reflect every day.
everything that happens, either good or bad are test from Allah, for you and also the one around you.
it's up to us whether we're ignoring it or actually do something about it.

i'm far from being a good person but i wish, and i hope i can do something about myself to become better.

thank you Allah for sending me good friends here, reminding me about my flaws and faults.

every test from Him actually brings you closer to Him. insyaAllah

tick tock tick tock

103. Al Asr ;

Demi Masa!
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Sesungguhnya manusia itu dalam kerugian -
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Kecuali orang-orang yang beriman dan beramal soleh, dan mereka pula berpesan-pesan dengan kebenaran serta berpesan-pesan dengan sabar.

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masa semakin suntuk. takpe. still ada masa.. walaupun sikit. berusaha selagi boleh. ya Allah, berilah kekuatan pada kami, hambaMu yang tak berdaya :'((

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おやすみなさい世界

disappointment

but i'm not sure to whom it is directed.

is it on you, or is it on me?

maybe it's a mixture of both.

disappointed with myself for being like this, caring too much

disappointed with you because..?

:)

な、本当に油断せずに行こう。ぜったいに。

Alhamdulillah

Syukur, that we human are gifted with special senses, limbs and high motor system.
With that, we're able to play and enjoy our daily intricate activities, sports for example.
For instance, when you're playing badminton. You look at the shuttlecock. You estimate the distance. Your muscles tense to get ready for the upcoming move. You hit the ball with your racquet, estimating the extension of your arm, with a form of racquet ; without even looking towards your action of hitting the ball.
That, is one intricate and beautiful process. The action of seeing, estimating and gauging your movement, the strength of your movement, while moving towards the ball, all in one go, is a very detailed and complex process. Sending data to your brain, interpreting, and giving the orders to your corresponding limbs.

Lawa sangat sistem badan kita ni SubhanAllah ;__; <3

Tak mungkin semua ni boleh dibuat oleh manusia kan? :)
Allah yang buat semua ni. Hebat kan?
Jadi kita kena la bersyukur dengan apa yang ada~ dan menggunakan anggota badan kita sebaik mungkin :3
renung-renungkan dan selamat beramal-*

りマインダー

ありがとうございました　＾＾

僕は本当に 弱い な。

１月７日２０１２；忘れないでお願いします

１０月２５日２０１１

hi there haemopoiesis

today we learnt about haemopoiesis. haemo = blood ; poiesis = process of formation and maturation.

related to the formation of blood and the mechanism to process it yada yada yada.

it was FUN because back in matrix I have learnt it too, with the antigen and the marker and the interleukine blablabla. I still remember how Kak Shiqin presented the mechanism of lymphocytes binding with the antigen when we are promoting our 'special sugar' merchandise for our English project. Haha.

But still, I wonder if this feeling of excitement and joy will last when the block ends, and the end block assessment comes looming right over my head? We'll see, we'll see.

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Yesterday, I've watched the Dream Live 3rd of Tenimyu.

The person who played the main protagonist ; Kotaro Yanagi was involved in a car accident and was in a coma for 2 weeks. He weighed only 30kg at that time. Consequent of the accident is that he suffered extensive damage on his body and vocal cords.

Taken from his book :-

「　The doctor's diagnosis was a cerebral contusion on the left side of the cephalic hood, damage to the brain stem and cerebellum, paralysis due to a subarachnoid hemorrhage, decreased mental status, impairment of higher brain functions....

At this time, I still didn't know what had happened. 

From then on, little by little I was able to respond to things, and even though I was conscious, it wasn't until the New Year had began that I was capable of any form of communication. 

Ever since I'd woken up, I had trouble remembering things, and I couldn't really retain anything new either, so I don't have very many memories of that time. 

I'd find myself staring off into space easily, and I'd close my eyes and loll around. It was hard to keep my balance, and I became unable to regulate my strength or speed. And the smallest things pissed me off. My hands and feet were partially paralyzed, so I wasn't even able to stand up properly. My dominant right hand wouldn't move according to my wishes anymore. My words wouldn't come out right anymore either, I couldn't articulate well. I'd get tired so quickly....　」

But still, he trieｓ his best in recovering and does physio treatment and rehabilitation with all his might, because he wanted to finish off what he had involved in ; the musical.

and so, he did managed to recover from the accident, but there's a permanent damage to his vocal cord, so when he sings sometimes the tune is not right, he had a very hard time memorise some of the lines while practicing for the musical and he could only dance out the simple choreography. He now exhibits a permanent limp when he walks, and his speech was not as smooth as before.

However, despite of all the hardships,  he successfully managed to make a comeback on the stage, and tries his best performing even though his body wont cooperate like it used to. 

It must be painful to lose the ability that you used to have and cherish. I was trying hard not to let my lacrimal gland to secrete more lacrimal fluid as I watch him perform ;__;

Here's the video of him giving speech for his last perfomance of Tenimyu.

I could not find the right words to express my feelings and amazement T____T..

If it were me.. I doubt that I'll have such strength to fight off the disability. Maybe I'll spend the rest of my life mourning..? Or maybe it'll take me some time to get over the sadness == I don't know :/

This proves that our cerebrum, brainstem, cerebellum and other component plays a major and vital role in our life. Their functions are so intricate, detailed and related, it is impossible for a human to mimic and create such system. SubhanAllah.. We should appreciate and be grateful with our body, health and the precious ability and gift given to us, because we never know ; it might be taken away at the moment you least expected it.

とにかく。。

柳 浩太郎 、がんばって　ね！ｄｏ　ｙｏｕｒ　ｂｅｓｔ～　ファイト！

油断せずに行こう

remember how you got here.

and dont forget what happened back in last year, you dont want that to repeat again right?

hush.

「油断せずに行こう」