again, selfish part of me wants to fail, and ambitious part of me wants to succeed and strive.
I keep going back and forth between these two, one moment I've become so pumped up and think I could go through all the hardships and challenges, and at another moment, when I read disheartening tidbits and info- I just want to pull away..
I know I keep ranting bout this thing for what, 3 times already? But I really can't keep those thoughts outta my head. =/