Sunday, 30 December 2012

seorang sahabat

will not speak the words you crave to hear,

but that person will speak the words you NEED to hear.

honesty is the best policy when the words are laced with niat to correct.

not to condemn.

constructive comments helps, instead of empty flatteries.


Umar The Series is a very good watch :) His traits makes him respectful, even before he converts to Islam.

sangat osem.

Wednesday, 7 November 2012

Distant World Orchestra

i LOVE listening to orchestras and piano perfomances, though i've never been to an official one, sadly. I wish someday I could listen to em, maybe a "Distant World Orchestra" perfomance? or maybe orchestra thrown by VGO orchestral team, though I highly doubt that they will come to Malaysia.. -.-

lines above are copy pasted from "piano and violin" post

guess whaaaaaaat

turns out that Distant World Orchestra DO COME to Malaysia! They'll come on 16th November. Ya Allah thank you thank you thank you :')

I'm irrevocably happy to be honest.

But I'm slightly scared that things will turn downhill, because I'm being way too expectant. 

Doakan everything goes well for me and tak ada aral melintang? ;__:

I do have been waiting for this since I was 10 years old.. It's like a dream I never thought possible to come true.

harap semua dipermudahkan ;__;

drabble part II

Being a Quistis doesn't mean that she won't face difficulties and having problems. Just because she's matured, experienced, and knowledgeable doesn't mean she's a superwoman.
Initially, all the hardships and problems are the one who had refined and polished her to become mature in the first place.
She had them earlier than other people, she had it harder.
But her faith, willpower and ability to think with logic instead of emotions prevails. To a certain extent.

A Squall can only give her support. Praying, muttering comforting words, showing caring gesture. But then that's all one could do. Because being a Squall make your lips locked, shut tight.
Fighting self, self-doubting ; contemplating what to say and what not. Because he knows his place. He knows that he's not as knowledgeable as her. He knows that he never felt what she felt. He knows that he never can understand what she experiences fully, because he's not in her place. He's not her.

Still.. He still wishes, prays the best for her. Leonhart, probably not as brave as his last name, but at the very least,

he cares.


It's been ages since I've updated this blog. Few reasons accounted to that, but one of them are the typical reason you and I always heard : lazy. and maybe abit hectic here and there. Will be spamming few random posts, please excuse that eheh.

Alot of things had happened during this uh, 6 months hiatus from blog. Too many, I cant even remember them all already. I've learnt quite a number of lessons throughout these months, either first-hand or observed one. Damages and damaged were done here and there, but I think all the faults and mistakes we made will make us a better person, insyaAllah. Everything exists for a reason. I'm still learning, still learning to be a better person. Friends, please don't get tired of me and give up on me. Let's remind and repair each other to search for Him, un? Jangan masuk syurga sorang sorang ;__;


"It's okay to fall, everyone have their ups and downs, and insyaAllah the fall will bring us to rise again. But if it takes you a long period of time to rise, self reflect and ponder what have you done, what inhibits you from rising again." - Kak Diba

Wednesday, 18 April 2012

wake up call

assess your environment and self reflect every day.
everything that happens, either good or bad are test from Allah, for you and also the one around you.
it's up to us whether we're ignoring it or actually do something about it.

i'm far from being a good person but i wish, and i hope i can do something about myself to become better.

thank you Allah for sending me good friends here, reminding me about my flaws and faults.

every test from Him actually brings you closer to Him. insyaAllah

Monday, 19 March 2012

abang mithali

adalah seorang abang yang pegi main dota masa adik dia tegur. bagus.

nasib baik la sayang. dan nasib baik la seorang adik memahami keperluan seseorang untuk main dota. hahaha.

Saturday, 3 March 2012


hari ni hari ahad.
saya suka hari ahad.
buat kali pertamanya.
dulu tak suka hari ahad sebab hari ahad tu hari last holiday.
sekarang dah suka sebab hari ahad tu hari pertama dan hari last holiday of the week.
bersyukur la nak kau ada hari untuk rehat. syukur alhamdulillah. 

hari ni menandakan dah dekat seminggu sampai india.
walaupun trip kat malaysia haritu short, tapi sangat sangat seronok, dan saya menghargai setiap saat yang dispend bersama family dan rakan rakan :')

mekaseh mak masak sedap sedap. nanti adawiyah dah tere masak adawiyah masak untuk mak pulak okay. mak tunggu je :P

hafizaidin + akak fiza, thanks teman jengjalan banyak banyak. teruskan merindui aku. bwahaha. 5 bulan je lagi, jangan nangis2 tau. wakaka /perasanjap

相棒も本当にありがとう~!:') あいぼうううううううううううう ぼぼぼぼ~ ハハハ~! <3

syaa, stef, mimi + mimi, cian yi, shirly, insyaAllah ada rezeki kita jumpa eh. :* :* :*

Sunday, 12 February 2012

To Zanarkand

such soothing song. the harmonics... TT_TT
/wipes imaginary tears

piano and violin

are the instruments that produce the best sound in the whole world, at least for me. and oh, electric guitar too.
i LOVE listening to orchestras and piano perfomances, though i've never been to an official one, sadly. I wish someday I could listen to em, maybe a "Distant World Orchestra" perfomance? or maybe orchestra thrown by VGO orchestral team, though I highly doubt that they will come to Malaysia.. -.-
of course, other instruments are amazing too. bass, drums, flute and saxophone are my favourites too. basically everything sedap lah senang cerita.


i really like to listen to  them. lots lots lots lots lots lots lots.

ending this post with a electric guitar ; medley of final fantasy 8 tracks by BKMJMBOXさん
his nimble, skillful fingers... はああああああ。。。。。。

it's a long good 10 minutes video, but worth the watch. his skills.. i cant even decipher ==

okok back to study

Saturday, 11 February 2012

tick tock tick tock

103. Al Asr ;

Demi Masa!
Sesungguhnya manusia itu dalam kerugian -
Kecuali orang-orang yang beriman dan beramal soleh, dan mereka pula berpesan-pesan dengan kebenaran serta berpesan-pesan dengan sabar.


masa semakin suntuk. takpe. still ada masa.. walaupun sikit. berusaha selagi boleh. ya Allah, berilah kekuatan pada kami, hambaMu yang tak berdaya :'((



Friday, 10 February 2012

a drabble.

blessed with sharp wisdom and intelligence, she had matured a long time ago, when her peers were still stuck in their child phase.

always the observant, absorbing everything around her, yet nothing comes out from her tongue, unless the situation urges her to ; making only relevant, needed words to be spoken out of her.

a compassionate and a soul full of empathy; always putting herself in someone else's shoes, empathizing instead of sympathizing, always soothen one's troubled heart with a carefully picked words, a fitting strands of word that one craves to hear when in distress.

she's the Quistis of my self rendered ff8.

and somehow, that makes it bearable staying here, without my best rival slash good friend, and my companion of sorts that are currently few thousand kilometres from here.

Sunday, 5 February 2012

like a Squall

reference to final fantasy 8 yes.

Squall ; typhoon; turbulence, chaoticness.

consist of his attributes,
only the negative one.
never the good one, never same with his last name. Leonhart.
no, far from that, i am.

he changed as time passes. as he matures.
but still, deep inside, he still owns the negative, pessimistic part of him.
because afterall, he's still a Squall. The Squall.

Saturday, 4 February 2012

I always wonder how paracetamol works

How does paracetamol reduce fever?

Aug 2, 2003, 11.02pm IST
The hypothalamus in the brain has a thermostatic mechanism which controls body temperature. During fever, a protein called pyrogen is generated. This increases the synthesis of a compound called prostaglandin in the hypothalamus, raising its temperature set point.
Paracetamol acts as an antipyretic and inhibits the synthesis of prostaglandin. Paracetamol reduces fever by promoting heat loss (through sweating and cutaneous vasodilation) and thus helps reset the hypothalamic thermostat.

Wednesday, 1 February 2012


but still a pleasant news.

we're far from being perfect, we will never be perfect. but.. at least we could try to become a better person.

for Allah the Almighty.

may Allah guide us, to become a better muslim and muslimah insyaAllah.


together ✰

me and you, and another you.


let's do our best~ no matter how far we are, we're chasing the same dream.

一緒にがんばりましょうな!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

Monday, 30 January 2012

moment of weakness part II

i've asked myself this question back before,

but actually i already had my answer long time ago.

you might not be here with me physically,

but i know you're here with me,




Friday, 27 January 2012


sangat menarik alhamdulillah.

room mate matrix saya yang baik lagi suci contact saya alhamdulillah. rindu mimi bangatt <3

lepas tu tengahari ada lunch kat rumah professor KJ. semua lauk sedap-sedap. syabas semua gadis dah boleh kahwin dah ni ;)

terima kasih prof KJ :D :D :D ; selamat fly--

sempena pemulihan sakit tekak, saya dan beberapa orang manusia pergi makan eskem basikal robin. makan perisa coklat + butterscotch.

bak kata emak, "ha, makan la lagi aiskrim. tu memang ubat sakit tekak tu haa."

si jah kemain lagi, mulutnya manis bagaikan choc topping yang melimpah ruah.

kemudian kami melawat BIBA. baju dia.. masyaAllah, lawa lawa belaka==" harga dia pun memang sama
lawa la walaupun ada sale. tergoda iman. sib baik tak beli apape. hem hem.

last sekali pergi kakewalk. tak pernah pergi. sedih betul dah berapa bulan kat sini baru sampai kakewalk hahaha.

lepastu nampak 'baya' tu tabur corn bersalut mayonis(?) atas satu keping roti besa gedabak tak tipu. lepas tu dia tabur cheese kat atas tu then grill. serious tempting. apakan daya perut sudah kenyang TT_TT

takpe, ada masa lima tahun insyaAllah.

alhamdulillahhh all in all harini sangat menarik walaupun hari-hari sebelumnya lemau yang amat. thanks gadis-gadis berkenaan kerana menceriakan hari sayaaaaaa <3 

Tuesday, 24 January 2012

JUS 101 - Teras Keusahawanan

memang tidak tidur laa semua orang menyiapkan JUS yang tidak enak ini.

selamat berusaha kepada mereka yang sedang menyiapkannya.

dan selamat malam kepada mereka yang sudah menyiapkannya.

moga segalanya dipermudahkan dan berjalan dengan lancar, amin.

Monday, 23 January 2012


but i'm not sure to whom it is directed.

is it on you, or is it on me?

maybe it's a mixture of both.

disappointed with myself for being like this, caring too much

disappointed with you because..?



Saturday, 14 January 2012


I believe, every encounter and separation is already destined.
I did not regret knowing everyone I've met in my life. Because thanks to them, they mould me the way I am.
Every single conversations and actions counts, whether it's good or a bad one. Whether it's only watching people interact or each other, or participating in the action itself, I try to reflect on myself, to put myself in other people's shoes. Eventhough at times, the self reflect came late, and the damage is already been done.

By saying it's already destined, I try not to regret what had happened. Doesn't mean that I won't do anything and leave it all to fate, but I'll.. do whatever I can.

For example, ( a weird one tho ) you accidentally broke your favourite mug. Or ornaments, or anything you treasure. You saw it happening, falling on the flat ground surface, but you aren't able to stop the fall. It broke and got smashed to tiny pieces. No matter how much you regret.. there's nothing you could do about it. We can never turn back time. Same goes for everything in our life. What's done is done.

I am thankful for being able to meet everyone. I believe nothing last forever, your age increases, your youth fades away, even memories that you tried to hold on tight will eventually vanish slowly, leaving remnants and pieces as you grow older because your brain are not able to retain the memories anymore. Why? Because we are only human. We have our limits, no matter how hard we tried, how much researched about lengthening our age. Just, no. There's nothing we can do about it, except hope for the best, for each of us.

So don't fret. It's okay. Because we're destined to end up this way.


Syukur, that we human are gifted with special senses, limbs and high motor system.
With that, we're able to play and enjoy our daily intricate activities, sports for example.
For instance, when you're playing badminton. You look at the shuttlecock. You estimate the distance. Your muscles tense to get ready for the upcoming move. You hit the ball with your racquet, estimating the extension of your arm, with a form of racquet ; without even looking towards your action of hitting the ball.
That, is one intricate and beautiful process. The action of seeing, estimating and gauging your movement, the strength of your movement, while moving towards the ball, all in one go, is a very detailed and complex process. Sending data to your brain, interpreting, and giving the orders to your corresponding limbs.

Lawa sangat sistem badan kita ni SubhanAllah ;__; <3

Tak mungkin semua ni boleh dibuat oleh manusia kan? :)
Allah yang buat semua ni. Hebat kan?
Jadi kita kena la bersyukur dengan apa yang ada~ dan menggunakan anggota badan kita sebaik mungkin :3
renung-renungkan dan selamat beramal-*

Monday, 9 January 2012

pleasureable pain

Good morning world!

played badminton this morning. 45 minutes. ONLY. sebab tempes nak main badminton jugak. takpelah. at least dapat merasa. sumpah rindu main badminton :)
sini unexpectedly dewan badminton dia kecik. as in sangat kecik. ada 2 court je, and the distance between the two courts are minimized and short. bleh ;^;
I think it's been uh.. six months since I've last played badminton. as expected my skill had deteriorated steeply hahaha. habis la macam ini T___T

I hope I can play badminton again someday, in Malaysia. though I think it would take a long time to do that.

rubbing salt to the wound


it's been a few months since i've ever played badminton. i really, really am missing the sensation of playing this sport so much, the sound of the shuttlecock as it got hit by the strings of the center the racquet, the squeaky sound that the shoes produce when it comes to contact with the floor, the swooshing sound that the shuttlecock made as it slice the air...
ye, dramatik sekejap. tak salah kan heehee :B

have no time to post my racquets back in home, so I bought myself one here. 

TA-DAH. Blue in colour racquet. Finally a blue racquet for me heh heh. <3

Hopefully things will turn out good and I can play at least decently, and wont be a burden to anyone else. :I

I'll try my best to do so ;__;



Random pointless info is pointless and random ; ARCTIC = ICE = 氷= 氷帝 (ひょてい)
BLUE = AO = 青= 青がく (せいがく)

Saturday, 7 January 2012




Din, kau still madar madar dane. goodluck exam!

Hafiz, mada mada dane in watching Prince of Tennis hahaha. jangan madar madar dane  sangat.

:DDDDDDd <3!


ありがとうございました ^^

僕は本当に 弱い な。



Tuesday, 3 January 2012

moi friends

please dont get sick of me repeating the "I miss you" lines to you whenever I choi-ed you in any forms of communication /fb/twitter/phone/whatsapp/yadayada

because I really do miss you guys tau. tau tau tau tau tau. :'( *kesat air mata*

poyonya hahahahah.

speaking of which, I still need to write my matrix journey :S bila la kau nak buat ni wahai Robiatul Adawiyah -.-

aaaaaand Happy Belated Birthday kak Adibah :) 3/1/2012 ; may Allah bless you akak! 

Ammonium Oxalate

lagi hebat dari Ombak Rindu (:

semua yang berlaku kan mesti ada hikmahnya.

Monday, 2 January 2012

hi there haemopoiesis

today we learnt about haemopoiesis. haemo = blood ; poiesis = process of formation and maturation.
related to the formation of blood and the mechanism to process it yada yada yada.
it was FUN because back in matrix I have learnt it too, with the antigen and the marker and the interleukine blablabla. I still remember how Kak Shiqin presented the mechanism of lymphocytes binding with the antigen when we are promoting our 'special sugar' merchandise for our English project. Haha.

But still, I wonder if this feeling of excitement and joy will last when the block ends, and the end block assessment comes looming right over my head? We'll see, we'll see.


Yesterday, I've watched the Dream Live 3rd of Tenimyu.
The person who played the main protagonist ; Kotaro Yanagi was involved in a car accident and was in a coma for 2 weeks. He weighed only 30kg at that time. Consequent of the accident is that he suffered extensive damage on his body and vocal cords.

Taken from his book :-

「 The doctor's diagnosis was a cerebral contusion on the left side of the cephalic hood, damage to the brain stem and cerebellum, paralysis due to a subarachnoid hemorrhage, decreased mental status, impairment of higher brain functions....

At this time, I still didn't know what had happened. 

From then on, little by little I was able to respond to things, and even though I was conscious, it wasn't until the New Year had began that I was capable of any form of communication. 

Ever since I'd woken up, I had trouble remembering things, and I couldn't really retain anything new either, so I don't have very many memories of that time. 

I'd find myself staring off into space easily, and I'd close my eyes and loll around. It was hard to keep my balance, and I became unable to regulate my strength or speed. And the smallest things pissed me off. My hands and feet were partially paralyzed, so I wasn't even able to stand up properly. My dominant right hand wouldn't move according to my wishes anymore. My words wouldn't come out right anymore either, I couldn't articulate well. I'd get tired so quickly.... 」

But still, he tries his best in recovering and does physio treatment and rehabilitation with all his might, because he wanted to finish off what he had involved in ; the musical.

and so, he did managed to recover from the accident, but there's a permanent damage to his vocal cord, so when he sings sometimes the tune is not right, he had a very hard time memorise some of the lines while practicing for the musical and he could only dance out the simple choreography. He now exhibits a permanent limp when he walks, and his speech was not as smooth as before.

However, despite of all the hardships,  he successfully managed to make a comeback on the stage, and tries his best performing even though his body wont cooperate like it used to. 

It must be painful to lose the ability that you used to have and cherish. I was trying hard not to let my lacrimal gland to secrete more lacrimal fluid as I watch him perform ;__;

Here's the video of him giving speech for his last perfomance of Tenimyu.

I could not find the right words to express my feelings and amazement T____T..

If it were me.. I doubt that I'll have such strength to fight off the disability. Maybe I'll spend the rest of my life mourning..? Or maybe it'll take me some time to get over the sadness == I don't know :/

This proves that our cerebrum, brainstem, cerebellum and other component plays a major and vital role in our life. Their functions are so intricate, detailed and related, it is impossible for a human to mimic and create such system. SubhanAllah.. We should appreciate and be grateful with our body, health and the precious ability and gift given to us, because we never know ; it might be taken away at the moment you least expected it.

柳 浩太郎 、がんばって ね!do your best~ ファイト!